We all know that I struggle to get my butt outside and go shooting. The problems with mental health issues is that you can often be in an external fight with yourself, between the things you really want to do, but can’t muster the mental energy to just go do it. Often times I have opportunities to go and take pictures, and that internal fight often ends up with me saying, “no.” Sometimes I push through though, and then I get these photos that I just love looking at and knowing that it was a product of me pushing myself forward when my mental health just wants me to lay face down and do nothing. It’s an accomplishment, so when I do get photos I like, I’m proud of them.
The last few weeks I have been out a couple times, and I had a wedding that I shot this weekend as well as a fall couple shoot the day after. I was super nervous/anxious but also excited to them, and I’m so happy that my anxiety chilled out enough that I was able to do my job.
So, over the last few weeks, I went out into the woods in Guysborough County, close to my family’s cottage and just wanted to explore. Look a light, see my favourite places and find some new ones. Become braver and go father into the forest and out into the pasture by myself (there are known black bears out there, so I always get a little nervous.) It was also cool to photograph these spots and see how a couple weeks, and even a couple hours have changed them.
This photo was taken September 24th, and it’s so lush and green (though you can see the beginning’s of fall start to happen.)
This photo was taken almost two weeks later on October 9th, and fall has clearly started.
Then there was this photo of this mushroom which was taken on September 24th at 10:03am.
I went back a few hours later and this is what the mushroom looked like at 4:26pm the same day. It was really cool to see.
I also love how calm the lake can get in the fall, you get this glass effect with a perfect reflection of the colourful trees.
I want to keep fighting my mental health to get out more and shoot. I like just spending time exploring, and I end up actually feeling much better afterwards, but I’m also not going to beat myself up over not getting out either. I know if I do that, I’ll just continue to feel worse.